You may be wondering why have I not written for so long. Oops… Well I forgot to write my blog. Life got busy… since I last wrote I bought a house and yes I can confirm buying a house can be a stressful time but actually it really wasn’t as stressful as I thought it would be. I was suprised! But wait I thought could it be that I am becoming Mindful? Has all this Headspace meditation really been working it’s magic on my brain. I can only assume maybe- unless I had a CT scan I wouldn’t be able to see the neural connections improving in the area of my brain.
I have now completed quite a few hours of mindfulness practice. The year is ending and I’m feeling quite reflective in my mood today. I can say that Mindfulness has led me to become more aware of myself and others. It has given me breathing space for my mind to relax. It has encouraged me to be less of a doer and incorporate some well deserved me time. It has also given me focus to improve myself not just for me but the benefit of others too.
One thing it has not done and I don’t think will ever do is it has not cured me of my depression and anxiety or my chronic pain and I knew it would not. I seem to be becoming a master or an expert at living with chronic pain and depression. Yes I face the stigma and problems I and many others face as a disabled woman. But I refuse to allow myself to wallow in the self-pity pit because what good has self-pity ever achieved?
So this year I wanted to be happier and healthier…Am I happier? What is happiness? These questions are unique to us all. The simple answer is yes, even if the world may not see it I am happier and healthier each day I try to be.